He smiles all the time now, yet to get a picture of it is nearly impossible. He knows even if his eyes are closed that I'm taking a picture. Just another area he runs the show...
Remember yesterday when I was having issues because I wasn't strong enough for the crib. Well...turns out I just didn't have the right nurse or coach if you will. His nurse today was so funny when I told her I couldn't lower his bed. She's like yes you can. SO I showed her. She worked with me for 5 minutes...and then she realized what I was doing wrong. AHHHH, thankfully his nurse had a sense of humor! She is the sweetest. And she was loving Hudson's PU gear...she's a Purdue grad:) She's the one that likes MaryLou's Donuts! So needless to say, no stopping me now from picking Hudson up:) Such a happy Mommy!
Ben and I met his new doctor for the next three weeks, she's great! We've been so fortunate to have such compassionate doctors. She told us she has a special liking to Hudson because of his team choice. They really didn't do anything out of the ordinary today. The volume of his food is the same, however they started introducing formula today. On a personal note...I finally swallowed hard and came to the realization that I could not and will not produce enough breast milk for Hudson. He's been getting donor breast milk mixed with what I've been able to produce. I do want to say thank you to all of you that encouraged me to breast feed or just left the subject matter alone. I've struggled for the last several weeks and hated and dreaded the conversation about my pumping/production, are you eating enough, are you drinking enough...it only added to my stressing that I wasn't producing what other mommy's were. I laugh about it now, but it is still a subject I don't want to discuss at any time soon. End person note.
Hudson had his fair share of brady's today...could have been that he had 2 shortly after his eye exam. YUCK! Ben and I decided we'd stay for the exam because we wanted to hear what the doctors had to say. From first exam to second exam the notes were the same but diagnosis was different. So this being the third exam, we watched. Hudson screamed and screamed and screamed, I cried and Ben laughed that I cried. But soon Hudson quit crying and was just wiggly. Doctor wanted a 2nd opinion, so the 2nd doctor came and said he'd be watched weekly. He's got a level 3 and a level 2 that they are watching. The doctor explained it like this, typically babies go 1, 2 and 3 and then reverse it and don't need any treatment. It's if the baby goes to 4 to start discussing treatment. After those mean ole eye people left, which is far from it, they are the sweetest people. I gave Hudson some Mommy love and we rocked...and that's when the exam caught up with him and he had his brady's. Not bad ones, almost like his lil body was just in shock.
Rough estimate was given to us today for early next week. Granted that was the nnp and not the surgeon. But she said that's her guess and would be surprised if not. That made mine and Ben's afternoon though! Hudson, well after his eye exam he was in a state of shock.
Hudson weighed in today at 5lbs 1oz. Yesterday he was 5lbs .5oz.
Hudson today:)
"People are going to think I stink, I've been in this same hat for 2 days!" - Hudson
"Who's ready for some football?" - Hudson
"No Mommy, I don't want to play with you. I'll wait til Daddy gets here." - Hudson
"Happy Birthday to my Great Grandma Murray! Daddy told me you'd see my birthday wish if I put it on here." - Hudson
"Level with me, when do I get to go home?" - Hudson
"Daddy says I'm the favorite part of his Tuesday! Sorry Mommy!" - Hudson
"I'm begging, please don't ever let them do that to me again!" - Hudson
"I'm babycising. Stretching my arms and making sure I've got good range of motion. Mommy is spotting me." - Hudson
Tomorrow, Hudson is 8 weeks old! I cannot believe we are already this far...though the next several weeks will be long and a few major hurdles before we can go home...going home will be here before we know it!
Stress definitely has a significant effect on breastmilk production so with everything you're experiencing, I'm impressed you produced what you did. Likewise, breastfeeding is a very personal decision. I'm a huge advocate for breastfeeding but I wouldn't dream of imposing my beliefs on someone else. You don't owe anyone an explanation! *hugs*
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